All Posts by Tommy Roel

Quick MONBO Writing Announcement: Sequel and Sneak Peak

The Sequel to my first book is coming out eventually as I have partially began some of it. 

The Title of the book will officially be:

“Depression Fucking Sucks, Doesn’t It? Part 2: “I think I’ll Just Do It Tomorrow.”

Teaser: 

Well guess who’s back guys? I thought maybe the first book was it, but a LOT has happened since. So let me delve into it… 

Guess who’s back? Nope, NOT Tommy Xans; he died. That nickname I intentionally personified for reasons I’ll delve into later is officially over and done with. That was never the human being I TRULY was……

More Updates:

Today I wanna just post an update on some previous announcements. Yes, sneakers are in the makes and so are more clothing and a larger variety of clothing as well. Finally I have my own personal heat press. Unfortunately, my guy helping me with the sneakers vanished totally! Like just MIA, boom, gone, No fucking where to be found. SO I’m continuing the sneaker venture on my own but I will provide more pictures soon once I get ahold of this crap; it’s enraging my “friend” just vanished. So I’m left on my own with butchered prototypes, but will provide updates on clothing soon in a different post. Now that I’m back on the Wagon I want to leave announcements between posts for constant updates. Trading cards is a dream that I WILL make come true at a certain point, but pressing more apparel and getting my sneakers down first is a priority unfortunately, so I just gotta take it one step at a time and keep on the grind. WE NOW OFFER Training programs from an NSCA Coach or regular workout programs/designs for cheaper on the website and inquiries should reach out in person or via email. Posts of the Programs will occur; however they are not free, so I will design an entirely different post discussing that. Additionally update to the home page and other areas will be made, as I work on another blog between updates. By the way, a new series for a T-shirt concept I’ve developed titled “Shoot Hoops, Not Dope,” is in the works as is a sequel to my first novel! Lots to come, but here’s a simple update. 

Love ya’ll

#MONBOFAMILY  

  • Tommy 

Names of Sneakers

“ The HighBar Hightop’s” 

“Cruisin’ Down The Street in my MONBOS”

The Lifestyles

Love, Toxicity, and Letting Go: Short piece

If you love something truly and you think you truly do love it you need to understand and learn that love because to be able to have that love to exist. It needs to be genuine and it’s better to have rather than not been loved at all. As the same goes, I suppose but I believe that love if you love something you need to understand why you love something enough in order to let go because if you love something too much, you could cause toxicity within the love and you cannot toxicity and love because that is a disaster and they’re all civil toxicity love it just makes sense to me that you love something so much that it causes pain. You need to understand it and learn about it and understand how to let go. It’s easy to say learn live, and let go, but it’s not easy to do but sometimes level of toxicity just makes it impossible, and you wanna let go, but you can’t because that love was so genuine and deep. Sometimes you don’t even know what it was and you lost and then you become apathetic empathetic and you just feel numb numb…so sometimes you just have to let things go

Guess Who’s Back?

Guess who’s back? Back Again? Guess who’s back…. Tell a Friend!!!!!

Article MONBO 2 Year Absence Update & Future: 

What the fuck is up and happening everyone? 

If you guessed properly, you’ll know who’s back; Tommy, and JUST Tommy… “Tommy Xans” has died…and I will address that later…. but

I’m back in MONBO Action MONBO Family, and the day ones know who they are. I have so much planned, so much to discuss, and so much to apologize for. 

First off Where have I been? I’ve been in a much needed unannounced absence due to Mental health struggles and more personal bullshit I won’t get into. I’ll get into all of that later. The important thing is that I’m back, and ready more than ever to revitalize MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC and bring it back to life. Many new drastic changes will occur. All former affiliates, ambassadors or sponsors no longer hold title-ship to such a term. I’m starting from scratch essentially; but have a ton of new ideas and amazing things to come. So here goes with the announcements. SNEAKERS ARE COMING! Merchandise will be relaunched and revamped! Personal training via NSCA Coaching or weight loss programs are now available via a trainer, and soon even MONBO TRADING CARDS! Tons of new BLOGS and writing information to come as well. I plan to continue my path as an Amazon Published offer as well, oh and by the way, during the midst of my break I managed to become an eBay Top seller, had slip ups, got clean again, have been investing heavily, studying history, working for my family, trying to get back to powerlifting, and lost 72 lbs after an uncontrollable weight gain due to medication that also caused Edema in my legs BUT lets save some of that for later…. Because its al lot… for NOW lets focus RIGHT NOW (Great song by SR-71 the Band by the way) on an article/blog I have prepared as an introductory post in order to 

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Here’s the first article.

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Why I like Legos 

Today I wanted to talk about LEGO. I’ve loved them since I was a kid, going to Legoland and shit, submitting my lego custom Skelton castle to the magazine, always building… it was a massive part of my childhood and as. I aged I fell back in love with them for numerous reasons and I want to explain why because it way more subliminal and deeper than one would think, and financial, as I’ll state that LEGO’s are fist off, amazing, but are solid long-term financial investments as they yield 10% higher annual net return than GOLD according to a NY Post article I read. So LEGO isn’t available on the DOW JONES, NASDAQ, or THE NYSE, so it’s a physical asset that you invest in but you need to find the right sets. You can even dime out individual Lego Figurines, such as Darth Vader STAR WARS LEGO MAN or loose sell parts online even But asides from generating commerce for me, LEGO’s helped me remind myself of something important. Just because it’s a kid’s game doesn’t mean that I can’t build them; building helps me calm down and focus on the moment and it’s a great coping technique for me personally. I get to slow down and focus on that or those moment(s) alone. Nothing else. Just me and my LEGOS. It’s about taking your time, building slowly, carefully, properly, and that parallels to MONBO in a sense because life is about development and taking your time to improve everyday in the proper manner. Don’t let people rush you. Grow into the amazing human being that you are and flourish. Just like building lego sets; you start from nothing and finish with a beautiful toy that you took your effort and applied to make it beautiful. It’s about taking things slow; we all know the famous Ferris Bueller quote! IF we don’t stop and look around in life then we might miss something (not verbatim via Ferris). LEGOS reminded me to take things slow and to find the beauty within the subliminal messages that you come across daily and that you need to find, when reading in-between the lines or when you expand your mind and think deeper than black and white (think grey) then you will start to see the everlasting beauty within the small things in life. Take a breath, look around, relax. Things do get better. But you have to appreciate every single little thing in life that strikes a chord of happiness within because life’s too short to miss or ignore or not appreciate the little things. When you focus on the little things you’ll realize life is beautiful, and always remember when looking not to judge a book by its cover or finish looking at the tip of the iceberg rather than looking at the bottom. The founder of the Olympic Games said, “The important thing in life is the struggle, not the triumph,” which is a beautiful quote and so true and relatable. LEGOS can be difficult to build but overall in the end it isn’t necessary to only focus on the triumph of creating the set because its about the little things; the time and care and effort that you put into building the set. The struggle of finding all the right pieces. That’s what’s important. Slowing down during the struggle so you can appreciate your efforts when success comes at last. If you could’t get the gist of the blog by now, well, then let me just say I’m using my Lego’s as an analogy to re-building my life and anyones lives in general. Star slow, but remain dedicated. Focus on the little things, don’t miss any opportunity for joy or beauty, pay attention to the finite details within things because some things in life have a deeper value than any amount of money could hold. Pay attention to the positive things, give yourself some grace, remind yourself it’s okay to make mistakes as long as you get back on the ride and grind away to become better. Focus on the small things when re-building something that’s been lost. It’s about what’s below the iceberg that matters. Be gentle and kind, take one things at a time, take things seriously but slow, and one day you’ll realize and know, thats “it’s all good baby, baby,” to quote The Notorious B.I.G, may he rest in heaven. One day you’re gonna look around and realize everything is okay. One day may be a long time from now but in the meanwhile, you gotta just keep grinding and you gotta focus on the small things in life first, and then one day, life will change for the better and  we just gotta take a negative answer and turn it into a positive; on some Juice World 999 shit, or MLK Jr, or again, my man Big, because one days its all donny be all good “baby, baby.”… (*Cue Biggies song “Juicy”). You know, the thing is, I have’t found my “One Day,” yet; I’m not healed or okay completely but THAT’S OK because I’m Working on it every single day. The thing is with LEGO; most worthwhile investment worthy sets are expensive; but regardless, if intrigued by the financial or emotional support I have gained from LEGO, I’d invest in all sets because financially there would be a potential good net annual return but more importantly LIFE is about taking steps and growing into the human being you ultimately become. I’m not there yet, but I’ve invested in small sets and large sets; sets of LEGO and sets of LIFE meaning GOALS. Build for smaller sets, take it one step at a time and prioritize necessity and need over want and desire. Take it slow, just like you would when building a LEGO, be careful, be kind and delicate, progress positively, be king to yourself, and eventually you’ll finish one set; one goal. And then its onto the next, and so on and so forth. Like my Uncle Gary taught me, LEGOS reminded me; Slow down, work hard, love harder, be yourself, build beauty from ruin, channel darkness into light, and never let the passions of childhood vanish because life’s too short to give up on dreams. “So here I am, send me”,(Isaiah 6:8); I’m back. MONBO is BACK AND HERE TO STAY. To all the readers never give up on your dreams, and take things slowly. One day, it will be okay, but for now we fight together, love one another, and appreciate each other and the small things in life, like a single LEGO man. Life’s too short to not be yourself. But it’s never too late to try to take the next step to build that LEGO set, accomplish your goals, and smile. 

Welcome home friends

(UPCOMING ANNOUNCEMENTS REGARDING APPAREL, CUSTOM APPAREL, WRITING, SNEAKERS, TRADING CARDS & PERSONAL TRAINING or NSCA PROGRAMS & MORE MERCH + MORE MONBO EXPANSION INFORMATION COMING SOON)

Sincerely, 

Tommy Roel

MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC President 

Lifting During Recovery

Lifting during recovery is hard. You’re not accustomed to being in the gym or to lifting due to time away from the gym because of mental health or other reasons. You, I mean at least me personally, get self-conscious about how I look or about my strength and how much better I looked and stronger I was. However, we cannot make comparisons to our old selves and must start over from the beginning with zero shame and zero ego. Lifting and eating right during recovery is very helpful too, and it also is a great coping mechanism. However, you need to transition slowly back into the gym to avoid injuries and so that mentally you are not stressed about the weight. Every workout is a good workout and counts and helps with recovery. If you need an extra hobby and are recovering, Lift. 

The Mental Health Blog #3: Fear & Anxiety

Here is the third blog on my mental health, where I shall update you on how I have been feeling emotionally and mentally. This is a fairly short article, but today I want to talk about fear-driven anxiety. Anxiety really spurs from the fear of something, for example potentially a large social gathering, because one may develop Social Anxiety. That’s what happens to me. Fear and Anxiety almost rule my life despite how hard I am fighting. Sometimes I am too anxious to get out of bed because I’m fearful of what the day may hold or bring, or I am fearful of waking up feeling the same way everyday; depressed. I am sometimes just too anxious to function. But I have to realize that it is really simply fear, and the only way to conquer that fear is to fight it. If you do not battle your demons, you will not win. The battle may be slow. Mine has been and still is. But there is light at the end of the tunnel and I believe that one day the anxiety will fade.

The Mental Health Blog #2: Losing Someone You Love & Grief

Here we go, the second blog. So, lately I have been struggling with loneliness and have been missing my deceased loved ones a lot. I have dealt with many losses in my life. I grew up without a Grandfather, only Grandmother’s. However, sadly, both my Grandmother’s passed away, as did my Uncle Gary. I lost a friend due to a chronic health condition, as well as two other friends; I am going to disclose how they passed for their family and for privacy purchases. My puppy was stolen back in Tampa, and recently, my two cats passed away. I had those cats for about 18 years. I got them when I was 7. They were my best friends and truly were emotional support animals for me when I look back at it. They weren’t stereotypical cats; they played fetch and went outside. It broke my heart so badly when they passed away. Unfortunately, I had dealt with grief and loss before. First comes the incredible depth of sadness and the waves of tears. Then comes the anger where you are just furious at the world for taking away someone or something that you love. Then comes grief and the mourning process, where we, or I at least, am constantly yet sadly reflecting on all the happy memories with my all loved ones, and how proud of me they might be of me, hoping that they are. I pray for them and pray to them asking for strength and I focus on all the good times I’d had with them. Now for me, that’s how loss works. But we must focus on the fact that they may be lost but are not gone, because they will always be with us. We must think of the good times and smile, because it’s what they would want. They would wish that we would have a good life and a happy one. So in my opinion, we must live our lives how they are; as we must not dwell in sorrow or in the past. We need to focus on the future and always keep our loved ones in the back of our heads and as long as you do that; you will never forget them. Our loved ones will give us the strength to keep moving forward and to keep bettering ourselves, and it is also up to us to make them proud. To all my lost loved ones, I love and miss you, and will see you again soon.

The Mental Health Blog #1: Self-Consciousness and Comparison’s

First and foremost let me explain what these blogs will consist of; although it is pretty obvious due to the title. I will be creating weekly to monthly blogs updating readers on my mental health and how it has been affecting me lately, as well as advice to others. Today’s first one is about Comparison; being too self-conscious and comparing yourself to others. Being self-conscious is very. hard in itself. I constantly compare myself to others lives, often to people who graduated college and have kids or are married/engaged and have all these business type jobs. I get down on myself because I think, “Why can’t I be like that?.” But at the end of the day when I analyze myself, although I’m different I realize now it’s good to be different, because being different can make us special. We are different, not less, and sometimes different begins to intrigue or almost intimidate people. Being different is special because we (people with mental illness) have different mindsets; and we can help recognize problems within others whom may seem “normal,” so that we can help them. Never compare yourself to anyone else, because we are all on our own paths and journey’s in life. Plus if you’re judgmental of others, you’re just an asshole. We are all perfect as ourselves and all are beautiful inside and out as God mad us because we are all human. So different or not, we are not less. In a certain sense, we are MORE.

National Mental Health Day

October 10th, is National Mental Health Day. Here is a piece of advice coming from someone who struggles with mental illness and struggled with addiction. To all of those whom may be suffering, just know that you are not alone, and that its okay to not be okay. It’s okay to cry, because we are all human, but you need to let emotions out. Compartmentalizing mental health or trauma only makes it tougher, so getting emotions out is key because it can take things off your chest and lessen the intrinsic pain. In a sense, talking about issues to friends, or professionals, can really help and is a relief because some Doctors can relate and know how to help. To anyone reading this or seeing this; Know that things do get better, you just gotta keep keeping on. Lastly, don’t get down about yourself because you’re a human being and that in itself makes you beautiful.

If you need help, I suggest you speak with a clinician, therapist, psychologist, or psychiatrist. I also suggest a blood test to determine mental health conditions so you know which medicine to take. If things are really bad; you can call the Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-8255. OR you can talk to me, I’m here for everyone within the mental health world.

God Bless

– Tommy Roel

“Depression Fucking Sucks, Doesn’t It?: The Confessions and Addictions of a Walking Disaster,” is Finally completed and Available to Buy

“Depression fucking Sucks, Doesn’t It ? : The Confessions and Addictions of a Walking Disaster” is edited, copyrighted, finished, and published! It’s about 100 pages, and is ready to buy in various ways. It is now available on Amazon.com for $10.99 (Just type “Depression fucking sucks Tommy Roel” under the book section and it will pop up on Amazon. I also am selling books in person, and can mail them as well. I can email the book in a Microsoft Word document or print the pages via my printer and can sell simple paper copies at a discount. Payment methods include Credit or Debit Card or a gift card if using Amazon; otherwise If I ship a copy or distribute them on my own in person; in person purchases are $10 without taxes or shipping, and payment methods include: Cash, Check, Venmo, CashApp, Zelle, Apple Pay, PayPal, & Google Wallet/Google Pay. Thank you to everyone who helped me along the way, especially my Father and Susan C. I hope my book can be enjoyed and can also help people who may struggle with mental illness like I do. I hope that anyone who may read it, thank you!

Author: Tommy Roel

Edited by: Ronald Roel

Testimonial: Susan C. New York

Cover: Susan C. New York

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