Category Archives for "Poems/Short Pieces"

Sponsorships, Ambassador Work, #Monbogang, Representatives, Salesman, Joint Ventures


  • Own a shirt, You’re in the #monbogang
  • Representative; Frequently represent and rep MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC and you get discounts on purchases.
  • Salesman; You can buy small to large amounts of clothing if you want to distribute on your own. If you place bulks order, 20% off. This is an in dissolvable position as you can always reach out to order my clothes if you want to, and if not, it’s all good.

Sponsors and Ambassadors and Partners 

( Provide Brief Info (whatever anyone wants me to write about them) 


  • You can be a Sponsor, an Ambassador, or Both.
  • Up to Five Sponsors right now. 
  • I shout out any fitness, business, or any other endeavors of our sponsors and partners.
  • If you want more of your own stuff/gear (more than the free apparel you get during new clothing launches); 75% discounts on any clothes; if so, FREE shipping as well. 
  • For any Clothing, My warehouse in in PA, so I would need to know in advance if kids order them.
  • You can CUSTOM YOUR OWN CLOTHNG; run it by me, and if it works out, we can make it a clothing release for you as a sponsor (would need to have a purpose).

SPONSOR (modeling, shoutouts): This means I consistently shout you out and send you free shirts when I drop a new released. I give shoutouts as well for any fitness or business endeavor – Just need consistent shoutouts as well in return, and can sponsor any athlete for an upcoming event If wanted. 

Also Require modeling for the website and other pages; especially required when given free gear. Basically; Free Clothing, shoutouts, feedback, promotion. 

  1. When a new clothing launch drops, you get free clothesas a sponsor/athlete. 
  2. I provide you with shoutouts, but to help me out, I need some shoutouts in return. Ex. When you receive new clothing, take pictures in the clothesand send them to me, so I can post them on the website in the lifestyle page for any promotional purposes, and can give you your shoutout for whatever your personal endeavor is. 
  3. Represent the clothing heavily, please
  4. Promote the clothing, please.

AMBASSADOR (Sales and Modeling);More-so is work, its mainly involved ways to make money off commission; you get me a sale, I cut you off a % of the sale depending how large.  THIS IS IF YOU WANT TO MAKE SOME MONEY. Usually 60/40 % split. 

  • Modeling; Because it helps promote the company, and give’s the individual some notoriety too (especially from the specific shoutouts posted on; an exchange of shoutouts through modeling, Represent the company heavy like a sponsor. (Consistency)
  • Ability to work with me on ideas for articles and clothes.
  • Provide Feedback. 
  • Help me with website. 
  • Can assemble orders for me – help you make money when we sell an order. 

All will have your own Section on the website at some point***

Partnerships/Joint Ventures involve dual sales, selling each other’s product on each other’s sites, splitting money etc. This is a topic I will delve into later.

Sponsoring; Lucas Lauridia, Pat, 

Ambassador: Murph, Pat Slovensky, 

Joint Venture; Jad Stephanou with “J&R Artisan Designs.”



I heard a quote one time. It said, “Where there is ruin there is hope for a treasure.” Many days in my life, I have felt like I had been ruined. But unfortunately, things can be ruined; buildings can, as can we. But, the most important part is that, the building, or us (metaphorically), we don’t need to stay or stay feeling ruined because we can rebuild. We may not be the same building as before. But instead, as the construction begins, we start over again and we fight as hard as we can Brick by brick, we rebuild ourselves and at the end, we are going to be a brand new stronger building. A new building, and a newly rebuilt person, knows what it’s like to be torn down, and knows what it’s like to work to stand back up. Yes, it takes a long time, a long fucking time. But life has a funny way of letting us know when exactly that time is. But it will come. We just need to let go of the old rubble. We gotta search through the rubble, set it asides, and begin our newfound construction.

This is dedicated to a close friend, hope you see this.

MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC Package Deal Announcement:

This is a new project I am testing out and launching for the website. I want to try to provide all my skills for people in one big effort. Now though there is free advice on this website, this deal provides much more than that. Every aspect described will be carried out to its fullest extend and I intend to help people full time if possible. So anything regarding dieting or training and programming will be taken extremely seriously and will be specialized and designed specifically for the individual. Additionally I will make myself available as a 24/7 mental health hotline. Here is what is included in the deal;


MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC Package Deals

Yearly MONBO Package

*One time payment of $250 or quarterly (every 4 months) payments of $63.33


  1. My MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC Phone Number for Contact
  2. A follow from my instagram @maxinoutandblackinout with the potential to have your lifting videos or modeling photos posted/previewed. Plus a follow from my powerlifting account @roel_powerlifting so you can see my powerlifting comeback.
  3. MONBO Gear / 5 chosen Products of Your size of any merchandise produced in the entire year – FREE shipping/handling plus USPS 2-day Priority mail. **Generalized Free 24/7 Lifting Advice. **Free 24/7 Powerlifting Coaching or Online Personal Training coaching and programming.
  4. Diet and Nutrition Coaching
  5. 24/7 Mental Health Consultant Aid Hotline; Talk to me if you need me.
  6. Access to receiving hidden and unreleased articles, or early peeks at articles that are in the making.
  7. You Get shoutouts on the website regarding modeling my clothes or regarding anyone’s business ventures and ideas.
  8. Any Additional Shirt Purchase beyond what is provided in the within the package will be 10% off.
  9. Access to Discount Codes.
  10. You gain the eligibility to submit an article to me for review, and then I may potentially post it on the website.
  11. Eligibility for anyone or any athletic sports team/athlete to be sponsored by MONBO. Sponsorships includes consistent shoutouts and discount codes.
  12. Copies Multiple CDs/Audio of me speaking throughout my mental health articles and experiences. Additionally, you will receive a CD or Mp3 files of every song or freestyle I’ve made, just for the fun of it.
  13. Lastly, You get to design and buy ONE special Monbo shirt, however you be would required to pay 50% of the cost due to high pricing on individualized shirts and logos.


Payment: PayPal Via Website, or I accept Venmo, Cashapp, Google Pay, and Zelle online. In person I accept Checks, Gift Cards, Pre-Paid Cards, and Cash.
SOON we will be accepting Debit or Credit.


The nights when I’m all alone and quiet are hard. Its like my brain is racing, running, going so fast. I keep thinking. I have all these negative random thoughts of failure in my head. I sit here quietly as I hear the crickets and the train in the distance. It’s physically dark out, and the darkness saddens me. I am thinking so much, and I’m alone. I have no one to talk to, or connect with. The darkness surrounds me, physically then mentally. Let me describe what I mean by darkness. Darkness is like loneliness except its heavier. It yells at you, you’re all alone and its yelling negative thoughts at you. It reminds you of the past things that were good but now are gone forever. But the thing is, is that theyre not. They happened. So they still exist. They’ll never go away, and never let the darkness or the loneliness prevent you from thriving. When it yells, yell back

MONBO 2019: What to Expect

This is a short post updating the website. The last few months have been extremely difficult for me personally, and this has helped shaped my ideas for what I am going to deliver content wise with MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC. I am going to be writing about one or two posts a month, one regarding mental health and the other regarding lifting. In addition, much more clothes such as hoodies, joggers, leggings, and more will be coming out as well.


Let Me Tell You A Little About Depression

Let me Tell You A Little Bit About Depression:

“My life, What It’s Like, How to Treat Other’s with depression, and How to Handle it.”


Here is another mental health article. I am getting very personal with this one and opening up even more. For years since I was thirteen, I have been struggling with self-consciousness, bouts of depressive episodes and suicidal thoughts, anger issues, loneliness, and past bullying which affects me today along with constant rejection my whole life. I have been rejected simply because I was being myself, and who I was; and was not accepted. I’ve loathed myself forever, made constant mistakes, been diagnosed with the enzyme disorder that I have spoken about before. I lack a sufficient amount of the enzyme MTHFR in my brain, which is a catabolic protein/enzyme that breaks down the B Vitamin Folic Acid. When released in your brain, Folic Acid releases neurotransmitters like Dopamine and Serotonin from your brain; the chemicals that regulate your mood and happiness/sadness. I was unable to release the chemicals because the enzyme MTHFR could not break down and release the chemicals, therefore I experienced symptoms extremely similar to depression. This required me to take a blood test and urinalysis, which also revealed that I had Generalized Anxiety Order or GAD, alongside with Panic Attacks. I additionally am prescribed medication because I have anger issues and trouble focusing on school and keeping my mind focused on priorities; as I have a scrambled egg for a brain as my thoughts are constantly all over the place. I’ve lost family members. I struggle with losing the love for my passions sometimes. Friendships and Relationships with significant others and Family members all are stressful and are all existent twenty-four-seven, three-sixty-five. I have been through it all. Doctors help. But the true ones who can help the most; are people like me, because we understand it better than just the science. We, the veterans of loneliness and sadness, understand things better than the doctors, because doctors studied it. I am it.


So now that you know I’m not a pussy and aren’t lying about my many flaws, let me truthfully tell you about what experiencing immense depressive episodes are like (basically what depression is like, but that is not my technical diagnosis so I use appropriate terms as to not offend those actually diagnosed with MDD). And secondly, being “depressed,” just means you have been feeling very sad, so watch your syntax if you’re around a diagnosed individual; they may take offense. Being diagnosed means you have chemical imbalances in your brain causing the disorder and therefore you cannot control it.





Its deep and dark and hungry and relentless. It’s a deep trench that God chose to dig for those whom are diagnosed. Maybe I deserved it, but ultimately, it is nobody’s fault, really. But depression, it’s not just being sad about something. It’s being sad about just; nothing. You’re fucking sad and alone, and you shouldn’t be, you know shouldn’t be. There is no reason for the pain we are experiencing but nevertheless, there it is; pain. You feel the depression. It’s excruciatingly difficult to feel pain for no reason. It’s like; there are so many other people in this world who have been through worse things than the depressed have been through; but they don’t feel this way. So, why do we? It’s not like we want to feel this way, or have a reason. And we especially don’t want to try and act as if our mundane lives are so much more painful than those of others who have gone through worse. But don’t feel bad for us, we, me, whatever. We, or at least I, don’t want fucking pity, I already fucking hate myself. I don’t want anyone else feeling bad for me. Those undiagnosed with a form of Depression can’t relate to the agony, or the tragedies that happened to me. It, Depressive Disorder, is not relatable to others because its due to chemical imbalances in our brains. We have this weight holding onto us, and this weight is not just on our shoulders, but on our entire fucking body. It is just dragging us down further and further making us feel as if we are so beneath everybody and everything; completing our feeling of worthlessness. We feel empty, lonely, angry, sad, confused, and guilty for being sad without reason. It is such a burden that is extremely misunderstood. Sometimes things feel so bad you just want to end it all, and I can’t tell you how many times I have come close to flatling myself. But I didn’t. Do you know what it is like, to shakily hold a knife up to your esophagus ready to end it all? But then you just can’t do it and throw the knife because you know you can’t, and all you have is tears, emptiness, and questions. But, what you still have too, is your life, and the ability to GET BETTER.


See, the thing is; there really is NO secret way to heal depression. Medication helps numb the pain until the pain adapts to the medication, which then causes the repetitive cycle of the medication never being enough or correct. You can talk to people, like your friends or family or a therapist like a psychologist or psychiatrist. But that just helps with temporary relief as you get things off your chest and gain support from friends. Now, regardless that the aid from medication and talking to people is temporary, I still suggest that one would do both as they are still steps that can help. But speaking from a personal level, I can tell you the one thing that I have been able to do that has made my depression manageable and made my life not so suicidal. These two other things, are love and laughter. These two feelings actually help me outweigh the depression sometimes. I battle my depression by making people feel loved, cared about, happy, and important. I drown out the cries of sadness with laughs of joy and drown depression using jokes and laughter and by spreading love. To me, being able to make other people happier, and possibly lessening their depression if they have some kind, through simplistic laughter, truly helps me feel better. It doesn’t completely take away the pain, however it certainly does the trick a lot better than the medications and is completely natural. Laughter and love do not come from a lab; they come from the human heart. They warm my soul and for a little while, the depression lowers. This is my suggestion to all who struggle with a diagnosis. Everybody should try to take their sadness and spur it into something greater and more powerful, and use that sadness to motivate us to create happiness. Spread love. Tell the people you love that you love them, compliment them just to make them smile, hug them to prove that you care, be there for them when they need you. Make somebody laugh instead of seeing them crying. Spread love throughout the world and some love will be returned back towards you, and that love is genuine and not fake. This true love I receive from people who I care about genuinely helps lower the depression. Laughter, being funny, and making jokes also help me escape the depression. Life is so tough, and to be able to make laughter out of misery is simply amazing. I am so thankful for jokes. To wrap it up, as Neal Brennan said in his latest Netflix standup comedy special “3 Mics,”; “You know sometimes the world can feel like a room that’s filling up with water, and for me to be able to think of a joke is like an air bubble, like a psst, psst. Like I can take the oxygen I get into my lungs and it can carry me forward. Like things can be overwhelming, and scary, and hurtful, but thankfully, my brain can descramble things and form a joke. Like just for one second, things slow down, and I can win, like I can beat life. It’s the best. And its so personal, and something I’m so grateful for. Jokes.”


Life is hard and overwhelming, but use your pain to motivate yourself to form a joke or to spread laughter and love, allowing yourself to breathe just for one moment. And in that moment, as Neal describes in which I agree, we can win. We can beat depression and beat life, just for a few moments. This is how I am overcoming my depression. This has been what it’s like for me. And this has been my advice. I wish all of you the greatest of luck and support, because even if I don’t know you, I care. Stay strong everyone.

  • Tommy Roel
  • Maxin Out n Blackin Out
  • 1-800-273-8255 (Suicide Prevention Hotline):

“When the Pain Hits”

This is not an informational article about lifting or school or blacking’ out right now. This is a poem I wrote to contribute to help other fight against mental illness’. Lifting information will be out soon, most likely a blog on how what drinks to stick to calorie wise whilst out and about and a lifting article about bench form and my advice.

Here’s the poem.  Stay strong everyone.


“When the Pain Hits”

When the pain hits, pick up the pen

When the pain hits, don’t always count on your friends.

When the pain hits, keep up your head.

When the pain strips us of love we fight till we are dead.

When the pain rips up our hearts, we stich them back together instead

When the pain hits, we don’t need any artificial meds

We stand back up when the pain hits cause that’s what was meant.

Life is full of twists and turns and pain beneath our chests

Life is full of hurtful selfish people but we know how to deal with the rest

When the pain hits, don’t let it sting, don’t let it stick.

Stand back up and make sure you don’t feel that pain again.

Become bulletproof and don’t let anyone affect you.

Do not let the selfishness of others ruin or wreck you.

Do not give up, I am here I will not let you.

Life is hard but good things are eventful.

Be strong and nobody will forget you.

Be tough and deal with things that are suspenseful

You are human, you are incredible.

When the pain hits, which is inevitable, use it to level you

Do not let it bury you, and when you stand back up

You will feel the strength and the love because you did not give up

When the pain hits, I wish it good luck, because from now on, the pain will not get us.

  • Tommy Roel