I heard a quote one time. It said, “Where there is ruin there is hope for a treasure.” Many days in my life, I have felt like I had been ruined. But unfortunately, things can be ruined; buildings can, as can we. But, the most important part is that, the building, or us (metaphorically), we don’t need to stay or stay feeling ruined because we can rebuild. We may not be the same building as before. But instead, as the construction begins, we start over again and we fight as hard as we can Brick by brick, we rebuild ourselves and at the end, we are going to be a brand new stronger building. A new building, and a newly rebuilt person, knows what it’s like to be torn down, and knows what it’s like to work to stand back up. Yes, it takes a long time, a long fucking time. But life has a funny way of letting us know when exactly that time is. But it will come. We just need to let go of the old rubble. We gotta search through the rubble, set it asides, and begin our newfound construction.
This is dedicated to a close friend, hope you see this.
*This article will be edited as I continue to use CBD; This is the first update
My personal review
CBD, or Cannabidiol, is a drug component found in Marijuana, directly derived from the hemp plant itself. However, this is the component that does not cause you to get stoned; and the CBD industry, public opinion, and legality has drastically changed regarding CBD generality in the last few years. CBD has been decriminalized, and is advertised to reduce anxiety, depression, muscle pain, and insomnia. There are many other health benefits, supposedly, such as CBD being able to aid Epilepsy. Alot of this is true, some scientifically backed, some not. Nothing I am going to speak about regarding my personal experience will be backed by science because I don’t want to talk out of my ass here. I am only going to discuss How I have used CBD to help lifting and pains, and remember; THIS IS PERSONAL EXPERIENCE, meaning it is what I have experienced and should not be taken to full account. Affects vary on all.
I have taken a small CBD trial period because I constantly ache from knee pains and low back pains to due exercises like squatting, deadlifting, and due to manual labor from working. Additionally, typing on a computer frequently doesn’t help my posture or joint pain either. I grew up with Osgood-Schlatter’s Disease (consistent inflammation of the patellar joint) and Shin Splits, and constantly have feet pain, knee pain, shin pain, lower back pain, and joint pain regarding my elbows and my AC and SC joints.
So, I wanted to try CBD for potential help!
CBD Cigarettes/Flower/Joints; CBD flower is sold in various smoking formats. I tired CBD cigarettes, which are cool because they come in a pack that looks like a cigarette pack with legitimate cigarettes; only filled with CBD flower. It was alright, and tasted better compared to the CBD joint. The CBD flower in itself was okay, but tasted bad. These mostly relax you, for a brief period of time. They take temporary stress and anxiety away, however it is not prolonged. IT definitely helps a tiny bit for part time relief, and in. my opinion can help a smoker habitually ditch the habit of smoking cigarettes by smoking CBD flower cigarettes instead. However, you are still consuming smoke, thus this CBD consumption format is not my most recommended. Still, it didn’t hurt.
Hemp Creams/Balms; I have been experimenting with health creams containing CBD. I chose to use a brand called HerbStrong.
***Have Not Yet Tried Tincture**
After and before workouts, afters showers, when I wake up, and before bed would be when I use this cream. Typically I timed it around when my body needed rest, was in fatigue, or wanted to prepare my joints for movements. This is my RECOMMENDED product for CBD aid regarding muscle and joint pain. It has a cooling effect, but not so much like a menthol Tiger Balm type of menthol strength or smell. It is lighter and more relaxing. My feet pain subsides, and muscle pains subside as well. Joint pain is the most difficult to fight, because constant reps, movements, and everyday motions affect my joints. However, the HempStrong really helps with the joint pain, and almost masks the pain in addition to helping with recovery. However, it wears off within about a half hour, and despite how wonderful it is for recovery, in my opinion, just as I view supplements, this CBD aid/product of any sorts can only help so much. But still, I definitely recommend CBD creams over Tiger Balm, and I’d rank Arnica creams or BioFreeze as s second best option.
In addition to the new MnB Logo MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC Beanies and the OG hoodies, I have some other updates. I recently have have been diagnosed with ADHD. No biggie, I just want to keep it real and make sure everyone is up to date. Workouts have been coming along better, and I am starting to see gains come back. I have began regularly taking supplements, adjusted my diet, and began to eat more. Expect more lifting articles soon; I have ideas written down but need to perfect my drafts. Expect an article within the next week. Expect to see lifting videos here or on our instagram pages @maxinoutandblackinout or @roel_powerlifting. Expect all of this soon; I am just getting back into my grind. I was part-time working two different labor job whilst progressing the company all while trying to maintain gains and control mental health. Also, I got accepted into the Food, Nutrition, and Wellness Program at LIU Post (Long Island University Post Campus) for the Spring 2020 Term with a major in Nutrition, which means potentially less content on here regarding articles. However, I will still post once a week or so, and clothing will be at a surplus to sell alongside with new clothing releases and ideas in the future. Training and Annual Package Deals are still available via emailing me. Additionally and lastly, I am making MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC Posters. Only 3 will be available for $20 each. I am doing this as a trial run. IF people like them, we will produce more which will lower prices down to $15 or even lower.
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In a few months it’ll be five years. I’ll never forget the moment I found out you were gone. I’ll never forget your smile and your pure heart. I’ll never foget my speach I wrote about you for @portledge_school and I’ll never forget the Essay I wrote about you in creative writing clsss two years ago in Tampa. Everything in my life is a derivitive of you, and becoming like you Uncle Gary, was probably the greatest thing I have ever done. I miss you so much and wish you were here to guide me through me mental health. But I know you’re kickin it up there. Thank you for all your motivation. If it weren’t for you, I wouldnt be a Powerlifter, a mental health activist, or a writer. Without you Uncle Gary, I would not be the Tommy that I am today. Hug your loved ones close and tell them you love them everytime you see them because you can lose anything in an instance; I did. I lost Gary. But through his spirit I found myself. I pray for you everyday and every morning I wake up and look at these photos. Thanks for teaching me everything Uncle Gary. Before Gary passed, we sort of witheld his private mental health website blog, and are finally comfortable enough to share Garys struggles with the world.
Check out my deceased Uncle Gary’s blog; Shattered Mind: Surviving Mental Illness.
And I’m going to follow his footsteps through Maxinoutnblackinout. I love you endlessly Gar. You lost yours when it should have been mine. But you have us all life again. I fucking miss you. I fucking love you
This is a new project I am testing out and launching for the website. I want to try to provide all my skills for people in one big effort. Now though there is free advice on this website, this deal provides much more than that. Every aspect described will be carried out to its fullest extend and I intend to help people full time if possible. So anything regarding dieting or training and programming will be taken extremely seriously and will be specialized and designed specifically for the individual. Additionally I will make myself available as a 24/7 mental health hotline. Here is what is included in the deal;
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Deadlifting is one of the most important compound movements around, despite what type of athlete you are. It my personal favorite out of the three main lifts (squat, the bench, and deadlifts). Deadlifting is typically viewed by an average gym-goer as a back exercise. However, your trapezius, erector spinea, biceps, forearms, and quads are all engaged in the deadlift.
Well obviously your back muscles, biceps, and forearms contribute and develop muscle easier than other muscles involved because these are the primary agonist’s. However, other body parts and form must be used.
Back: Form and Contribution;
Back, Bis, Chest, forearms, biceps, and form,
1)During the deadlift one must NEVER let their back band in a motion where your spine can bend. This can cause serious injury or pain.
2. You need to work on the form, no matter whether conventional or sumo. Keep your back straight and chest up to keep the proper range of motion so that your back doesn’t bend too much, whilst keeping your chest up a little helps with proper form and injury prevent injury. You need strong biceps and triceps for your grip especially regarding what stance you use. If necessary for a 1RM, you should use straps to prevent further injury to calluses or open wounds. Also, I like to roll the barbell forward a bit then roll it back to me. This engages my Latissimus Dorsi muscle activated before you start your deadlift. Then, I launch my knew (like typical deadlifting) and as soo as. I grab the bar I squeeze it as hard as I can and pull it close and tight amongst my calves because with a bent-over back and improper form you can easily hurt your back, cause muscle sprains, all of which can be a result of bad form and bent over deadlifting. If bending over too much, too much gravity will pull the weight down and you’ll lose the rep/ Now rep work: Personally, I perform rep work with both however I would max out or compete with conventional. This way your overall deadlift form increases and lowers risk of injury.
3, Quadriceps: Always slightly squat down. NOT a full squatting motion, just low enough to get down to the bar. engage your quads on the lower portion of the movement and stretch beforehand.
4. SPREAD THE FLOOR: Newton’s third law is “for every action force there is an opposite reaction force.” Now spreading the floor means to keep your feel slightly bend inward in which when pulling the barbell, you try to rip the ground with your feet. This applies pressure, allowing Newtons third law to have its equal opposite reaction force. This generates more force all around and strengthens the compound movements.
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The nights when I’m all alone and quiet are hard. Its like my brain is racing, running, going so fast. I keep thinking. I have all these negative random thoughts of failure in my head. I sit here quietly as I hear the crickets and the train in the distance. It’s physically dark out, and the darkness saddens me. I am thinking so much, and I’m alone. I have no one to talk to, or connect with. The darkness surrounds me, physically then mentally. Let me describe what I mean by darkness. Darkness is like loneliness except its heavier. It yells at you, you’re all alone and its yelling negative thoughts at you. It reminds you of the past things that were good but now are gone forever. But the thing is, is that theyre not. They happened. So they still exist. They’ll never go away, and never let the darkness or the loneliness prevent you from thriving. When it yells, yell back