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Suggested Supplements and their supplemental effect, Foods, Techniques and Compression For; Bone, Joint, Ligament, and Other Pain

I am diagnosed with Shin Splints and Osgood Shclatters (its where the ligament frequently unattached from itself during running; the ligament gets pulled apart). I have random wrist issues too. My whole life I played sports. From T-ball and Soccer Leagues or Practices on side as a child, to playing basketball, baseball, and lacrosse from 5th-9th Grade, for the exception of basketball which I played from fifth grade to 12th grade; four years in high school (2 years J.V, 2 years Varsity) I was ran cross country for two seasons, one of which I took seriously. I played Lacrosse (defense) in 6th and 9th grade. I even ultimate frisky for a season (few months for fun at school); I boxed, did Karate, and MMA on the Side. I’ve gotten into street fights, not going to lie. I bodybuilded heavily until I began to powerlifting heavily, then I integrated strongman and olympic weightlifting movements. All the running, the Jumping, jump roping and insane amount of lifting (especially heavy Squats and leg exercises, with jumping for working out too( combined with my diagnosed Osgood Shlatters and shin splints really damages and injures my wrists and knees a ton. But I’m working my way back. I decided to create a list of supplements to show you guys supplements, ointments, compression, and advice on joint paint, etc.

List of Suggested Knee Compression: I Suggest casually using knee compression via compression underwear or using the thin knee sleeves CopperFit for casual relaxing compression. For Lifting, I Suggest SBD, or STRong Sloves. Rehband’s are great as well. I like to wear the CopperFit’s under even.

Creams and Ointments, Hemp, Tools, Advice; I also Suggest frequently using Tiger Baum (menthol feeling; cooling pain), Arnica (Pain reduction, joint aid), Aloe (For Dry Skin), Keratin (stronger/healthier skin and skin composure), CBD Joint Muscle Cream (hundreds of studies proving its healing benefits). CBD tinctures are the seemingly most helpful. T-relief is a good brand for Arnica and Aloe cream, by the way. (Smoking Hemp/CBD can be helpful too if you are a smoker, just saying). I suggest taking hot and cold showers before and after you workout (cold first is my personal go to), take heating pads and heat them up; apply them to your knees and low back for muscle relaxation. For pain, ice muscles and injuries or take Ice baths. the Spirit Tiger Tail, Theracane, and various foam rollers of different sizes and types are also helpful tools to dig deep into muscle fascia, and knots. Sports Massages or regular massage therapists, or a clinic, physical therapists, athletic trainers, and chiropractors are all very helpful professionals too. I enjoy Ice Baths too. Even hitting the Steam Room and Sauna can help. Also Stretch Every Day and work on your posture!

List of Suggested Supplements; Their Effects;

  • Elderberry: Packed with Vitamins and Antioxidants to Aid Immune System, Lessens bodily stress, protects the heart, helps with bodily inflammation (of joints for example) – derived from flowers and berries.
  • Zinc: Bone Metabolism and mineralization, and minimal Protein formation
  • D3; Stronger Bones and a healthy immune system but Fat Soluble.
  • Magnesium: Helps make protein, bone, and DNA. Also regulates nerve and muscle function.
  • Calcium: Helps muscles moves, builds build Stronger Bones, Bone Composition, structure and hardness. Teeth are bone as well. Also required for the protein production.
  • Biotin: A B Vitamin otherwise known as Vitamin H, competes our skin, hair and nails, which I suggest to be used on a daily basis for minor protection and healthier skin.
  • L-Arginine: An amino acid that increases blood flow so necessary supplements and Nutrients flow throughout the body for effectiveness.
  • Collagen: -Protein That is found in bone, skin and muscle. Helps strengthen your skin and. bone.
  • Glucosamine Chrondrotin KSM-66: A Strain of the supplement; KSM-66 is the best. It Is used to relax the body of stress
  • Rhelora; Natural Well Being
  • Rhodiola Rosea; Calms the Body
  • L-theanine – an Amino Acid that Produces a sense of bodily relaxation
  • Turmeric and Curcumin. An Orange root often uses ad powder for decorating food, however is extremely helpful fun inflammation and pain, can help battle Hay Disease, Cancerous Substance, is a powerful antioxidant. It is fat soluble and also may Help with Arthritis.
  • Kelp; Natural sources of Idone; in safe does helps healing damaged cells
  • BCAA’s: L-Valine, L-Leucine, L-Isoleucine: Essential proteins for your body to create peptide chains to rebuild stronger muscles.
  • Obviously, Whey, Isolate, Casein, Mass-builder and protein with Glucosamine (amino acid for recover) for recovery protein sources.
  • Food suggestions: Mixture of Fat-Free,Regular Whole Milk, Almond Milk for Dairy; A source protein and fat to help break down substances like D3. Meet products like Bison and Buffalo are higher in protein, creatine, amino acids than Cows, with less fat too. Also We need healthy fats like Polyunsaturated and monounsaturated fats so we have, subcutaneous fat (fat between skin muscle, protection in a sense before the dispose tissue protection your organs) that fat, just as stated, is often used to protect vital organs controlling muscles that are activated when needed; Potassium, Creatine, etc.
  • Some very simple medications to take simply are Tylenol/(Acetopminophen) Advil/Ibuprofen; Over the counter Pain-Relief Meds
  • Apple Cider Vinegar; weightless, kills bacteria, skin protection
  • BCAA’s help build muscle that is broken down; broken down glucose used in workouts,  results in lactic acid and soreness; evidentally resulting in being sore after you lift.
  • You breakdown and Restrengthen and rebuild stronger and then bigger muscles, by consuming protein, proper rest afterwards, and –
  • #2 BCAA’s can be drank before during or after a workout; BCAA’s are peptide chains that create proteins and are used for energy, so realistically having BCAA’s Before After and During is a great way too build muscle, the more lifting you do, more flexibility/stretching will be needed, but added flexibility can help reduce soreness, tightness, and enable you to perform movements you couldn’t before due to gained mobility after many repetitions and workouts. The reason I speak about this is because muscles produce the force that rotates bones around their axis. Without stronger muscles, you have weaker bones, because there is less muscle protecting it; reducing the ability to rotate bones around their axis within a more powerful manner; without muscle (or having weak muscles) ;  

The strengthened muscle and bones/joints/ligaments/skin cannot be as flexible since the muscles are not large enough to produce enough force to rotate your bones around specific axis’ in your body,   (top athlete level, obviously all humans have muscle); flexibility in your bones joints ligaments, can be affected by muscle mass due to tightness if one lacks flexibility, as well.

These are all things that have affected and helped my joint pains.

Happy MLK J.R Day!

This is quick excerpt.

Happy Martin Luther King J.R day (God rest his soul) to everybody out there. I idolize that man because he had such passion to change the world and was capable and was a beautiful human being who wanted to change the world for the better, and he was willing to give his life. He fought for freedom of hatred, and for Civil Rights Movements, He instilled into us that any form of discrimination is vile, and believed us all to be human. “Darkness cannot drive out darkness. Only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate. Only love can do that.”-MLK J.R. He had a dream. It became true. MLK J.R inspires me to be a leader and better person. Martin Luther King helped change the world in. Beautiful manner at that time period. And in this stressful painful world we are living in, rattled with political issues, racial injustice, police brutality, religious discrimination, and worse. But we especially need to Acknowledge this man today; because no matter what we look like we have to suppress this evil together, as one. One love to all, and MLK thank you for being a role mode to me, and to millions,

Buildings

Buildings

I heard a quote one time. It said, “Where there is ruin there is hope for a treasure.” Many days in my life, I have felt like I had been ruined. But unfortunately, things can be ruined; buildings can, as can we. But, the most important part is that, the building, or us (metaphorically), we don’t need to stay or stay feeling ruined because we can rebuild. We may not be the same building as before. But instead, as the construction begins, we start over again and we fight as hard as we can Brick by brick, we rebuild ourselves and at the end, we are going to be a brand new stronger building. A new building, and a newly rebuilt person, knows what it’s like to be torn down, and knows what it’s like to work to stand back up. Yes, it takes a long time, a long fucking time. But life has a funny way of letting us know when exactly that time is. But it will come. We just need to let go of the old rubble. We gotta search through the rubble, set it asides, and begin our newfound construction.

This is dedicated to a close friend, hope you see this.

Shattered Minds

Uncle Gary This is For You

In a few months it’ll be five years. I’ll never forget the moment I found out you were gone. I’ll never forget your smile and your pure heart. I’ll never foget my speach I wrote about you for @portledge_school and I’ll never forget the Essay I wrote about you in creative writing clsss two years ago in Tampa. Everything in my life is a derivitive of you, and becoming like you Uncle Gary, was probably the greatest thing I have ever done. I miss you so much and wish you were here to guide me through me mental health. But I know you’re kickin it up there. Thank you for all your motivation. If it weren’t for you, I wouldnt be a Powerlifter, a mental health activist, or a writer. Without you Uncle Gary, I would not be the Tommy that I am today. Hug your loved ones close and tell them you love them everytime you see them because you can lose anything in an instance; I did. I lost Gary. But through his spirit I found myself. I pray for you everyday and every morning I wake up and look at these photos. Thanks for teaching me everything Uncle Gary.
Before Gary passed, we sort of witheld his private mental health website blog, and are finally comfortable enough to share Garys struggles with the world. 

Check out my deceased Uncle Gary’s blog; Shattered Mind: Surviving Mental Illness. 

Shatteredmind.org

And I’m going to follow his footsteps through Maxinoutnblackinout. I love you endlessly Gar. You lost yours when it should have been mine. But you have us all life again. I fucking miss you. I fucking love you

MaxinoutNBlackinout LLC Package Deal Announcement:

This is a new project I am testing out and launching for the website. I want to try to provide all my skills for people in one big effort. Now though there is free advice on this website, this deal provides much more than that. Every aspect described will be carried out to its fullest extend and I intend to help people full time if possible. So anything regarding dieting or training and programming will be taken extremely seriously and will be specialized and designed specifically for the individual. Additionally I will make myself available as a 24/7 mental health hotline. Here is what is included in the deal;

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  5. 24/7 Mental Health Consultant Aid Hotline; Talk to me if you need me.
  6. Access to receiving hidden and unreleased articles, or early peeks at articles that are in the making.
  7. You Get shoutouts on the website regarding modeling my clothes or regarding anyone’s business ventures and ideas.
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  12. Copies Multiple CDs/Audio of me speaking throughout my mental health articles and experiences. Additionally, you will receive a CD or Mp3 files of every song or freestyle I’ve made, just for the fun of it.
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The Entirety of My Mental Health Issues: Intertwined and Unfiltered

“Depression Fucking SUCKS” 

My name is Tommy Fucking Roel, and I’m here to tell you a little about my battles and what I have faced. I have an enzyme disorder in my brain called MTHFR Mutationwhere the B Enzyme Folic Acid cannot be broken down because I have an absence of the enzyme that does such, therefore I cannot naturally secrete normal levels of dopamine and serotonin. What’s this all mean? Depression, a fat fucking wad of depression. 

Secondly, I have G.A.D, or Generalized Anxiety Disorderwith frequent panic attacks, often 2-4 times a day, maybe 5. The anxiety has been nerve-wracking and crippling for almost ten years. Ever since I was a 13-year-old kid. Fuck man. 

Lastly, I am diagnosed with BPD, or Bi-Polar I. Yup, I’m a fucking nut. But if you’re fucking nuts like me, at least don’t be bland. 

Even though I’m not how I’m supposed to be, I still got some kick in me.

But,

To get you a little idea of how bad my shit really is; here is a list of medications that I have been on and failed. 

  1. Lexapro– This was the first one, an SSRI, WHICH I CLEARLY DIDN’T NEED. It made me fucking hallucinate. No joke.
  2. Lithium– This was firstly for my Bi-Polar. It made me feel alright, then crazy, then alright, then crazy. It also didn’t affect my acne very well.
  3. Abilify– Abilify is a mood stabilizer that, which is safe to say, doesn’t stabilize shit because I’m still sad.
  4. Seroquel: I was on Seroquel for a while and that helped a tiny bit, but it just made me hungry and gain weight.
  5. Rexulti: I have been on Rexulti for a month or so now, and felt minor improvements, however nothing major and the sadness relapsed.
  6. Lamotrigine: This med is the only med of these that I continue to take because it helps a little. Granted, I’m throwing it on the list of shit that’s failed because it hasn’t prevailed yet, but there is some room for hope still. 
  7. Divalproex: The newest med I’m on. How many meds does it take to get to the center of a depressed kid’s heart? The world may never know.

There you go, six or seven different meds (and a suicide attempt) later and I’m still here battling the demons. Now why would I ever be so open with my medical history? 

BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE IS AND ITS TIME TO OPEN MY MOUTH FOR EVERYONE.

No one has completely helped me through this. Now plenty of people and counseling have provided aid, but ultimately the sadness is my own battle. Me vs. Depression. 

And one day I WILL fucking win, man. In order to avoid delving in too deep and even furthermore than I have before, I wanted to tie everything I have written about anxiety and depression together. Here is a combined excerpt of what it feels like to be lonely, and what it feels like to be depressed.

ANXIETY: “Razors”

The world feels like a room full of razorblades and no matter where you move or walk, you’ll get cut, and that’s what anxiety is like, the world is the room and we’re in the center with all the razor blades around us and we just are scared of life and moving forward because we are scared we are going to get cut and hurt or that we might even get so hurt where bleed out. So, we stay stagnant and sit in our spot not moving so that we don’t get cut by the razors, we don’t get hurt. But how can we feel anything if we don’t move? Finally, the fear of the blades and anxiety becomes too much, so we need to move. but instead of making an incision in order to end it all, I realize that I cannot stay stagnant or end it, so I realize I must fight the razors. I put my head down, and I move forward towards the door. Despite all the pain from the razors and anxiety, I move. And finally, I think, I’ve made it out the door. I have plenty of scars and cuts and wounds. But here I am. Outside. 

  • Yup. In my best words, this is what anxiety feels like. I finally have been able to overcome some of it, but however, depression and anxiety have a funny but not-so funny way of relapsing.
  • On to the next one!

Depression, MTHFR Mutation, and Bi-Polar: What It Feels Like To Be Lonely

What It Feels Like To Be Lonely”

Being lonely is different than from what you think. It’s a mental thing. It’s not just being alone physically, not simply the physical absence of company causing you to yearn to surround yourself with individuals just because you want to socialize. You yearn to surround yourself with people around you so that the presence of others can distract you from loneliness. Loneliness, see, it is a constant and consistent feeling, the fear, the sadness, the desperation of wanting something, but yet you do not know what it is. You are lonely and empty, and the loneliness actually causes the emptiness, forcing you to try and find something, anything, to fill up that emptiness. You are alone. Mentally, even if you physically aren’t. Like mentioned before, You fill yourself in rooms full of people, familiar and friendly faces, momentarily filling up the deep darkness and emptiness inside of you. And for a brief moment, you are content. But in an instance your being content with the situation changes and the loneliness comes back, and the momentary happiness slips away into thin air. It is a vicious cycle. We strive to fill our loneliness. But we don’t know how to fill it, or what to fill it with. We try to find passions, careers, relationships. Or we use external methods of escape such as facing the bottle or taking that pill. But the artificial happiness created by external factors such as love and other drugs soon and suddenly evaporate. We find or search for pointless careers in which we try to find a purpose within such careers hoping we find our calling, or purpose. Some lucky ones find such purpose, but us, the lonely, cannot. Soon such loneliness will return to haunt us. The empty space within us will always fill up with momentary and artificial happiness before we are drained and stripped of such happiness or empathy, leaving us just as empty as we were before. But despite our faults, our loneliness, we smile through the pain, through the despair, the emptiness, and through the loneliness. We don’t know how to solve it, but we are trying to. There is no scientific cure for loneliness as I believe that loneliness correlates with our souls, not simply our genetic makeup regarding cognitive function. Loneliness is a matter of the soul, a soul who feels empty and alone, yet through the pain, we know we must persevere. So we smile, we are lonely, but we smile because that is exactly what we need to do. We cannot let our loneliness engulf us, we cannot let our sadness bury us. We cannot hide it, but what we can do, is fight it. Smile, day by day, fight by fight, battle with loneliness, and eventually one lone-full night, the loneliness will evaporate because we have won the fight. You cannot give up, be brave and be bright. Loneliness sucks, but we must persevere and not let it take our lives. Smile, because someday everything will be alright.

  • This, in every word, is how I have felt for the past, God I don’t know, nine years at least. I know I will win the battle and continue to fight, but God is with me and so are my parents, family, friends, and support from my medical professionals. Together we can beat our ravaging depression. NO MORE attempts. The only attempt we need is to further our lives, better ourselves, and never look back; only forward. Hold each others hands, hug the ones you love, because in times of turmoil these are the ones that truly matter to us, and make us realize that life itself is a gift because it gave us the ones we love. And it gave us the ability to love. And although I am massively and seemingly helplessly depressed, I am SO GLAD to be able to feel these feelings because before I could not feel anything at all. Now I feel again, and I feel alive, more-so than I have ever been. Without heartbreak, there will never be love. Because love is the only thing that can put our hearts back together. Never give up, never stop caring, never stop fighting, be proud of who you are, and spread the love as far and as wide as you can. Together, we shall conquer sadness by creating beauty. 
  • From one mind of an incredibly fucked up Kid,
  • Thank You
  • Tommy Roel
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